My Own Blackwater

It has come to my attention that my room is covered in spider webs. This must have happened gradually, as the only time I'm in my room, the only light is that of my computer, and, for that matter, the only things I ever interact with in there are my computer and my bed. It would make sense for spiders to build webs in places I don't enter.

Scratch that, there's webs under the bed.

Now I must consider, I haven't seen anything alive in my room (that includes women) for at least 4 months. And, come to think of it, I haven't even seen the spiders that built the webs. There's 4 possibilities:

- The spiders all came overnight and I've yet to see them.
- Someone is playing a very elaborate joke on me.
- The webs have always been there, and the spiders are long gone
(Here's the one I'm going with)
- The amount of garbage [old popcans, used plates, etc] in my room has caused a steady number of insects to enter. However, I have not noticed because my room is actually filled with small cabals of ninja spiders, that eat the marauders long before I even notice them.

The strange part is, that's the most likely scenario. To be honest, if thats true, I really don't mind. They seem to be staying well out of my way, and they are providing a valuable, laziness-enabling service that I just can't get anywhere else.

So good luck you brave arachnids! And Godspeed.

My New Religion

For the past year or so, I've been having some deep spiritual issues. As of now, I'm pretty sure there's something out there, although I'm not sure it's benevolent. In fact, it makes much more sense to me that a divine being would be kind of an asshole, just because it can be. What I am sure of though, is that if some metaphysical agent did make the world we live in, it's just not very involved in our everyday lives.
Think about it. Existence is an invention, and no inventor wants to make something he has to be constantly fixing; it should work on its own.
My theistic position isn't very important, compared to my new lifestyle. I am now a Dudeist. If you haven't seen The Big Lebowski, you should. It might change your life. It probably won't.

Here's what I think:

- Life gets worse with age.
- Happiness is finding a way to enjoy every day enough to want to keep living.
- Each person has maybe 50 fun years of adulthood, max.
(Here's the important stuff)
- Each person should live in a way that makes sense for them.
- A Dudeist is a person who does/thinks/says/ what they want, whenever they want.
- Society may tell you not to act in a certain way, especially if that action makes you happier than them.
- Fuck society.
- If you want to eat, eat. If you want to sleep, sleep. If you want to ride a bike through a park wearing a cape and singing the theme song to Charles in Charge, start pedaling.
- Your life is far too short to live in a way that makes you unhappy. If you're not living the way you want to, you might as well be dead.
- If you're so miserable that you don't want to get out of bed in the morning, don't. Eventually. you'll either get bored, or die. If your depression is bad enough, either will be an improvement.
(These are the rules)
- Calm the fuck down.
- Don't be an asshole.
- Any action that hurts others cannot possibly make you happy. That's not the way it works.
- Don't be an asshole.
- Do not think that this philosophy is a free license to pillage, plunder, and rub chocolate sauce on the elderly while they sleep.
- Don't be an asshole.
- This philosophy is simply a means of cultivating and exercising personal freedom. Under no circumstances are you allowed to inhibit the freedom of others in order to exercise yours. Just because you like pushing people down stairs, if those people don't like tumbling down flight after flight, you're not allowed to do it.
- If it doesn't hurt anybody, do it.

For the record, I'm not the first to think of Dudeism. I'm just the first person that I know of to put it to these words.
In other news, I've got a killer idea for a game, I'm gaining ground in learning C++, and I'm pretty happy in deciding to make games. That's about all I have. Have a good night.

It Begins.

Those who believe in fate are ruled by it, and those who don't have no future.

Meaning, if someone believes that they have a very specific purpose, and that purpose will be fulfilled, then the guiding principle in their lives is to adhere to whatever they think that destiny is. If not saying that this is bad or wrong; it is just the nature of destiny. The direct motivation for this idea seems to be security. I am, for the record, not sure where I stand, but I guess I'm leaning towards some small facimile of a fatedriven universe.

Those who do not subscribe to a terminating fate idea take charge and control of their lives, live every moment to the fullest, or at least, they intend to. Once again, I'm not endorsing the idea, in fact I think that it doesn't leave much room for the consideration of improvement or growth.

Either way, I just felt like exploring the ramifications of the ideologies. I'm at least positive that strict adherence to either worldview can only cause selfishness and unin (or possibly just in) tentional harm to others. Let me know what you think.